Riley Jade Fulviano

WC Posts : 22 Points : 4381 Join date : 2012-12-21

Journal Entry

Damn and I thought being away would keep me from knowing the ills of our family…I heard mom gave birth to the babies and it was a boy and a girl, I also heard Trick was out to kill Kyrian for getting Jayden pregnant. But she lost the baby that saddens me, I know that had to hurt Kyr and Jay to be honest Jayden doesn’t seem like the mother type to me. As for myself I love school being away is a good thing but sometimes I miss my family, dad and Mandy almost split that was going to hurt for sure I love Mandy she is the nicest step mom I have ever had and Chris y baby brother is the cutest little thing.

As for Ethan well I don’t know he seems rather distant and possessive too it’s scary, I like him don’t get me wrong but I like having friends too and especially Tobias. Ah yes the nice what was he again Puerto Rican yes he is very good looking and he likes me too. Ethan almost ruined that for me but Tobias is tough for his 12 years of age in fact he is about to turn 13 and we have been sneaking around school away from Ethan to have talk and sometimes play some freesbee.

If Ethan finds out he will be mad but I don’t care I like Tobias and he likes me and Ethan is too possessive and he needs to make other friends. Well I better close you up before Ethan comes close I swear he has a radar or something that he finds me so fast. Oh PS Tobias kissed me the other day I was stunned and scared my dad would come out of the bushes or something since I got in trouble for doing that once I was very scared but Tobias smiled and hugged me saying it was ok if I wasn’t ready for it that he apologized. I have to admit he kisses good but Ethan, no not going there my dad will stop being Jayden’s dad’s friend and I don’t want that. Ok well gotta go here comes Ethan later journal.

WC Posts : 22 Points : 4381 Join date : 2012-12-21

Journal

I don’t know I think I messed up my family, and now I don’t know what to do about it. My mother she is sad because my sister Serenity still in the hospital and has not woken. My father he is mad at me because I said I hated him but I really was just mad because he was just not paying attention to me. And Jayden well her I envy, she has moms attention, her dads, Kyr’s and everyone around her. That is not fair you know and I try hard to keep my mind and mouth out of it but I feel like I don’t exists. I did exists once in the school I was in to the teachers that wanted to hurt me, maybe I should have said nothing and just gone back. So what if they hurt me at least someone wanted me at least someone cared. Ethan he can’t even be around me my father and mother decided he is a bad influence if they only knew that I am the bad influence. I wish I could scream to the world I want to be noticed too but that is being selfish since Serenity is the one who needs the attention so do the twins and I guess Chris but really where does that leave me?

Alone I am alone, no one even cares ok fine my mom fought to keep me but what good does that do? I am just another kid. My father thinks I am a brainless blond, yeah so much for him loving me. I want to just die and stop my existence for good since no one cares maybe just maybe they will care when I am gone. Or maybe I should do something completely horrible that seems to be what gets their attention. I wonder if this is how Julian feels? No he is a boy and mom adores him and Gabriel, Jayden and Jake she spoils by letting them do as they wish. Yeah I bet I do something utterly terrible and I get attention probably a good beating to show me they paid attention. Ok so what should I do, I already picked on younger kids…fighting is out of the question. Ok maybe running away would get the attention I need, yeah running away so the judge can place me in an orphanage, no, I can’t do that then what should I do? Ask for attention? No that is stupid and selfish. Ok maybe date some thug is that what they called it in my old school thugs, but that would hurt Ethan then again Ethan is off limits. I know I am 12 but who cares I see girls my age dating and doing other unsavory things why not Jayden got away with it. Lucky Bitch! Anyways is all I have to say for now I better hide you before noisy grandma finds you again and tells mom again.